It has been a long time since I have posted. I Know SAD. But really The reasoning behind it is that I am Finding out who I am. I am growing into myself and Where i belong. I am becoming who I am suppose to be. Yes I am a Mother of a GREAT Outgoing 2 and a half year old Boy. Yes I am a wife of a Hardworking Wonderful husband. But I have come to remember who I am and who I want to be. I am Tiffany Amber Plyler Gray Lewis.Yes I Just Put Plyler in there. For one fact, I am who I am today because of My Biological father too. If Things Didn't play out Like they did, My mother wouldn't have learned how to be as strong as she is, I wouldn't have Learned from her how to survive without a man. ( Not dissing Brandon, But I never "needed" a man. Just wanted one ;) ) If he did Not leave I would not have known My Daddy. Hence the Gray name I legally kept to show him Respect. He is a lifesaver. He stepped in and Took me on as his own. I don't feel like I am treated the same as his kids sometimes recently, But I know he loves me and he just Doesn't know how to Let go and Let be.
There are some people in my life that have accepted me and some that haven't. The ones that have I Love dearly and i appreciate them.. The ones that have not. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. It use to bother me that I wasn't liked or accepted. Not that I would change who I was for them.. But I didn't like when people Didn't like me... Now, I don't care. I am fully 100% happy with that because if you don't like me, It's your problem not mine. I am who I am and I don't care what people think. If I want to Bitch about something by God I am going to and a FAIR WARNING: MY FILTER BETWEEN MY HEAD AND MY MOUTH IS SLOWLY DISSOLVING. So what comes up comes out. If you don't like it... I Don't care.. :) I will do what I want when I want with no one telling me they don't like it, I shouldn't do it for their own selfish reasons, Or I should do something I think I shouldn't. I am sick and tired of "protecting" other people so guess what? If you screw me over Ill screw you over twice. Hello I am Karma's sidekick.. We are both Bitches. No one will run over me anymore! I will not pretend to not do something around people. I am who I am.
I don't know.. I Like the new me.. I am getting more of what I want. I am thinking for myself and what I believe is right. With me Finding myself and being who I am, My Child will learn to be himself no matter what. That's What I want for him. It's been quite funny, I am quicker with my comebacks that are better then before. I Know where i stand now and STEP ASIDE. cause I am coming through. No one will take anything away from me. I am losing my weight and I am going to be happy with Myself for the rest of my life. No more pleasing for everyone else. IT'S MY TURN :)
So If you are offended by the word BITCH. You wont like me. :)
