BURN NOTICE

From the look of this picture you can probably tell what this Blog os about first. Thanks rightI am quitting smoking!! Bandon is too, we are trying Because First of all, Ciggarettes are going up to almost 10 dollars a pack!!! We can't afford that and who can?!?!?!? Anyways, i am kinda glad though, really, I have been wanted to battling my thoughts to quit for a while and now I have a reason too. I am glad though because I don't ant Christian to be like " oh mom and dad re cool. they smoke s0 I will too" ya know?? I mean add it up, Brandon and I Both were going through about a pack a day and piece...se we were paying lile $7.00 for 2 packs, well $7.00 a day times 7 days a week, thats $49.00 a week. thats a good ammount right? well when you put it into monthly its.... $196.00 a month!!!!!! Thats almost $200.00 a month we are smoking away! LITERALLY!! Just for the fun, lets look at a YEAR. $2,352.00 a YEAR! wow, Thats alot of money... what to do with all this money after quitting??? WE WILL SEE!!!! YAY

I am craving one right now.. I really want to walk outside and light one up. But I am not going to. I don't need it. I am just getting bored and out of habit I am wanting to go and get one. But I am not buying ANY MORE . Its gonna be hard and i am gonna be bitchy but oh well, its worth it. I am probably going to become OCD about cleaning to keep my hands busy, LOL or blogging and typing to keep my hands busy!! WOW... Its gonna be hard but oh well I can do it. I am strong enough, and what I am going to do is workout when I am fighting the urge for a cig. and It will also help with me losing weight!! So I will be blogging about my adventures with that...

I am also talking to my Sperm Donars soon to be Ex Wife... Linda. she contacted me last week, and Yea my Sperm Donar's soon to be ex wife... I love her to death, and we have decided to stay in touch! So we might go over to Gulfport, Miss. soon to see her or she might come over here... :) she is such a sweet Lady and we have so much in comment when it come to the people in or out of our lives...LOL she is awesome. So I wil be blogging about the adventures with this too, So stay Tuned!!

My Son is officially 2 years old and showing it! LOL He is right on target with weight and heighth but he has a big head...lol He is in the 75% with his head...LMAO But he is on target EVERYWHERE else... :) and it seems as if shen he Turned 2 that was it he started wanting to become a big boy and is starting to want to do stuff himself and do things a big boy does... I am so proud of him!!!

So Please stand behind me in the MAJOR changes comeing up in my life!!

I'll Get you My Pretty, and your little Dog too!!!!

Have you ever felt like you were stuck in a movie? How about You run into people or know someone who lives in their own fantasy world? People Like that I just Don't understand. I don't understand people who Know right from wrong but still choose wrong even when they have someone their whispering in their ear the consequences of their wrong actions. I have someone REALLY close to me that is like that. He can be one of the smartest and Brightest one human being on this earth but has no idea what its like to survive on his own and make the right choices to make him a better person and a better life. Sometimes with this person I feel like I am the wicked witch of the west and I am out to get him Like somepeople seem to him too. But really I just want him to make something of himself, I want him to be somebody one day, I don't want him to tun into a jailbird.

WOW my child will be 2 in 4 days!!! I mean I knew it was comeing and i knew it had to happen someday but DANG!! Its like last year, we are all like awww... he is turning one! how cute! This year we are all like WTH HAPPENED TO THIS PAST YEAR?!?!? He is sooo sweet and mean at the same time! He LOVES to jump on our Big king size bed... He likes to wake up and sneak out of his bedroom and run into the livingroom like he is in a broadway play with his arms up in the air and yell "HEYY!" He is my joy and My heart is about to burst with all of the love I have for him. WOW 2 years old!

For the past 2 months I have been working out and Trying my Hardest to lose some weight and Guess what? as of today I have lost a total of 18 lbs!! 18lbs! Did you read that???? Its amazing! I am down to 220 and I couldnt be happier ( well I take that back i could be happier if I could wear a bikini and Not look like a beached wale caught up in a too small of a net on the beach) But I am getting there. My Luck I will get down to a Nice size for me and BAM Ill get preg again... MY LUCK I TELL YA... But really i wouldnt complain one bit :)

So my words of wisdom for tonight: Don't let ANYONE take your kindness for weakness, and I can be a wicked witch if I want to, I can bleed for 7 days and not die.

Paving the way to a better life?? can you do that?

We Found a house we are absolutely in LOVE with. The only thing is that it came at the WORST time possible. We just paid our rent for our home now and have no money for a deposit. We are working on ways to get the deposit up but no one has the money for us to borrow right now and you know what? That is OK with me because the way I see it is that every time we need something or want something that requires help we help ourselves. We have always been the one that has taken care of ourselves and made out own path and We will do it again. I will not be the one that Runs and runs and run and never makes it anywhere... I will cross that finish line.

I have been thinking a lot about my Biological father. its like when things go bad I think about how he should OR have been there to help when I needed. Its like now I want to shout at home "WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???" But every time I start going what is wrong, I think about my Daddy, he is the best man ever and would Do ANYTHING within his power to help me if I absolutely needed it. and This man LOVES my son more than anything in this world, He is Paw paw.

I Hope I get out more and Start meeting more Moms. I really need more friends that understand that I have a young child and he goes where i do. Also, understands the things I go through on a daily basis and Someone to talk to. I am so thankful for websites like our local momslikeme.com Site. Those women are funny and awesome!

Laundry Multiplies Like a hooker with no Birthcontrol

I swear I have been washing clothes all day for the past 3 days, IT DOESN'T STOP! I mean I Know I have 3 adults and 1 child here in this house but come on!! I am washing so much that by the time I have the load done I am tired and just Piling it up in a laundry basket and then its sitting there. i should make a dresser that all you have to do it Load laundry baskets in it. Or a machine that folds... Either One!

My room mate Amber and her son Caleb finally moved out, So now Matt has his room back, So we are getting back to somewhat of a resemblance of a normal Life. Now all we need is to get Matt a car and we all will be good to go and can get into a routine! Because Taking him to wirk and Brandon going to work at the same time leaves us cooking supper for lunch almost. and it gets OLD. But hopefully sometime soon we will get this routine together.

I can't Believe Its snowing so much in Tuscaloosa, Its amazing. I want someone to send Pictures so I can see!! It doesnt happen that often! and of course it never happens here, I am not saying I LOVE snow, its pretty and If I was somewhere it snowed I would go outside for a couple of pictures and then retreat back into my warm house. I HATE cold weather!!

I can't wait for summer, Even though I am still overweight and look horrible in a swimsuit, I LOVE the beach and warm weather. Its so much Fun!! I can't wait to be sitting at bamboo willies and drinking a Bushwacker and listening to bands playing. That is the BEST.

and now my thoughts of the beach are broken by the dryer alarm going off.... When does it stop?