Decisions

I look back at a decision that i made just a couple of months ago. i took a risk with my heart and now i see it was a risk i should not have made. I was getting close to a man i have always been close to.. But I chose to get into a relationnship with the other man that came into my life... Now looking back maybe i should have been there for the one that has always been there for me. after falling for the new guy, things were great. experienced feelings I never knew i could, and as fast as i fell, He dropped me. I called the one I knew. I wanted to see how he was. i hate to hear that he went through what he went through without me. but I am glad he is good now. but the phone call was awkward. He was with friends and it was like we havent talked in YEARS. not months. I can't help but wonder where i would be if i didnt take the chance with the new guy. if I had just kept dating the one that was there... my heart wouldnt have been broken, and I would possibly still be happy and still have the new guy as my best friend like he was. Perhaps they both would be here for me in a different light. You live and you learn right? But perhaps I missed out on the chance I was waiting for For the experience of my broken heart. Being Single now, once again, I know someone out there is waiting on me. Is thinking the same things I am. and i just hope i find him one day. Until then i will put my complete focus on my Son and school and work. I will build my life alone once again and go up from there.